excuse the ramblings
2002-03-11 @ 6:47 p.m.
and his blue shirt
that used to make me happy
clings now in some peculiar way
and its sexual
and it scares me
because now
there's somethig more
to him than
the blue, that shirt brought about
in his eyes
he is not mine, though i did discover his appeal
many may claim it...
but I feel like an Indian
the first founder of is inner beauty
and love
so should I build reservations in
his skin and sleep there
under a tent and the stars of his smile
forever?
Impossible.
All things are overtaken.
Even, his blue shirt
because now, his body belongs to it
and he owns it
not I
Why the change?
hard
hard
hard
moving on
I keep thinking
"i had him first"
gimme
gimme
but its over
gone
gone
away.