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2002-04-01 @ 5:44 p.m.
I need to stop getting drunk. and being honest. and making myself vunerable. last night i told him that i am still in love with him. i had drank a bottle of wine. amazing the courage that comes with drunkeness. or cowardice. i guess its a paradox either way you view it.
but he just let that statement hang akwardly in the air until it basically fell to the ground, and broke into a million peices.
and what could i say to fill the silence? the room was completley dark, and all i could se in flashing neon lights were th words "i'm still in love with you" they looked ridiculous. and wrong.
so i was like forget i said that and he tried to pull me closer. he likes it when i am weak. he really does.
so today i am left feeling abit squiggy around the edges, and have a headache. and feel like an ass.
did you know that your mom is my next door neighbors dogsitter?
APRIL FOOLS. damn i gotcha